Yeah....KEEP RUNNING

We try to have a family dinner as much as possible. Lately the youngest is pulling the 'I don't like this' and 'I don't like that' (food that she has always eaten and liked). She also kicks her chair incessantly, pounds on the table and sings really loud through most of the meal.

It is difficult to hear about what's going on in the lives of the other two when she is constantly screaming for attention. When in reality she does get the most attention and the other two always feel that I'm not giving them enough.

Anyways, usually I'm steady and I can handle what she has been throwing at me except for a couple days ago. I let my horrible day and my back pain take over and get the best of me.

There were the glances back and forth between Eli and I. I felt like my glances to him was pretty clear.  'I'm about to lose it' or 'HELP' apparently it didn't come out clear. After saying calmly to the youngest 'please stop, that's enough' over and over again....

UGH Here it comes.....

JUMPING OUT OF MY CHAIR ~ "OMG SHUT UP....I can't take it anymore!!!! BLAH BLAH BLAH" ~ADULT TEMPER-TANTRUM~ (I'd tell you word for word but I honestly can't remember what was even spewing out of my mouth)

There may have even been a curse word or two in there I don't quite remember, it happened so fast.

~Sigh~

After I removed myself away from the table and the family, Eli came to check on me and started laughing... seriously laughing. Then there was a serious face and a "how are you doing, that was pretty rough.  Dana you scared the living shit out of everyone and the girls and I practically jumped out of our chairs."

Eli told me that my unforgettable unexpected scene that I made reminded him of Lucy (Drew Barrymore) screaming "YEAH...KEEP RUNNING" at the end of this scene in 50 first dates.... then he started laughing again... while I'm choking back the tears.  

We talked it out and I apologized profusely to the girls and put the trouble maker to bed without a book (ouch). I know I should've just removed her from the table and talked to her separately before I completely lost it. I just really wanted to just sit and have a nice family dinner. I want to be able to sit and talk to the girls during dinner.  Is that really too much to ask?

Well it didn't quite work out that way did it?

So when my girls are in therapy...that whole scene will be brought up and talked about I'm sure. Way to go MOMMY DEAREST.